I promise this is the last blog about girls. It’s just been on my mind for a while, and this isn’t exactly the kind of stuff I plan on putting on my Longhorn Confidential blog which is, by the way, here. Life is just too complicated sometimes. Midterms are coming up and I am so screwed. I don’t pay attention at all in calculus class, don’t understand a word of physics, and I’ve been skipping the TA sessions for physics. It’s time for change, and it’s not Ciroc Obama.

It sucks to try to pursue a relationship with someone while they’re living far away. Houston is only a 3 hour car ride away, but I can only go on weekends. Some weekends, I’m just busy (studying, ha) or I’m just not up for the ride. But what’s college life about? It’s about being away from home and learning new things. Learning to live by yourself.  I’ve known this girl a little over a year, and I’ve just watched her date other guys. I’m just on the sidelines. Right now I’d consider us best friends. She said she doesn’t want to lose me as a friend because I might end up like her exes. She says the ultimate goal of a relationship is to get married or break up. Her exes don’t want to be friends with her. Maybe I’m being naive, but she doesn’t know I could spend the rest of my life with her. I’m confident the feeling isn’t quite mutual hence the sobering conversation. Best friends, it is.

Tonight is gonna be crazy. Physics homework due at 2 am, lab write-up and aerospace homework due tomorrow. Tuesday nights are always the worst. Tomorrow night is the meet ‘n greet for Longhorn Confidential bloggers at Mellow Mushroom, looking forward to that. Time to get started…

I’m officially a Longhorn Confidential blogger! That doesn’t mean I’m going to abandon this blog though. I have to blog about campus related activities on there, so everything that isn’t campus related will go here! I want to make the UT blog about food and all the different places to eat here in Austin. Just some ideas, I happen to be out of those for the UT blog.These past couple days, I’ve had some serious reflections about myself. What do I want in life? What is my goal? Where do I want to go? How will I get there? What will I be like 10 years from now? How will I have changed the world?

I guess it’s why I’m here in Austin. It sounds hella cheesy, but I want to raise a family. But to do that I’m going to have to find a successful job. To do that I’m going to need to get a degree. I looked over my next three years as an aerospace engineering major, it’s nicely packed. I want to graduate and be like, “I’m a rocket scientist ;)” It’s hard to think about the rest of my life when I’ve got so much to think about in the now. I’ve met a lot of interesting new people here in Austin. Of course, I’ve made closer bonds with the people I knew back from Houston.

That’s it for now. My schedule is pretty easy going, 9:30 or 10:00 am classes everyday, I get out about 3 except the days I’ve got physics TA session or physics labs. Those are later in the evening. On the up side, I’ve only got one one hour class on Fridays. It’s just back to the daily grind of class.

Something I’ve never talked about on here is girls. Maybe I’ll feel better after typing this. For the past couple days I’ve just had this girl constantly on my mind. I met this girl over the summer. My first impression was that this girl is hella smart. She knows what she wants in life. Oh, on top of that she’s cute too. Those of you know who know me, well, I’ll just leave it at that. She’s seen the way I talk to other girls and I think she feels like she’s just another girl in my life. But that’s exactly how I don’t feel, I can’t even concentrate in class. All of my friends who have met her all approve, saying she’s very nice. I can honestly say, yeah I do like her. As the situation always is with me, I’m never sure if the feeling is quite mutual. I find that we just don’t have enough in common; I’m way too geeky, but I always find that true in any relationship or friendship. On top of that, my sense of humor is still too crude and immature to be considered a sense of humor. It’s like those times that I feel like I’m overlooking the ways that we don’t click. I just like being around her. Whenever we hang out I never think of the ways we don’t click because she’s comfortable company. She’s very outgoing and being from Austin, has tons of friends who she visits on weekends. She doesn’t live on campus so it’s hard for me to hang out with her. Right now I just don’t know what the fuck to do. Maybe I’m just tripping. I don’t know.